Addiction brought me to dark places. It turned me into someone I couldn’t recognize. Physically, emotionally and spiritually. I was robbed of my spirit, I didn’t feel any emotions and I physically looked like a walking skeleton. Luckily desperation saved my life.
Getting out of active addiction was the beginning of a long journey. The decision to put myself into detox was the first step. It wasn’t easy and I changed my mind every other day for about 2 weeks, but I fought my disease and made it to detox.
After detox I was sent off to treatment, and of course my disease tried telling me I’d be fine after 7 days of detox and I didn’t need treatment – but I absolutely did need treatment and I went. The first few weeks I battled my thoughts everyday and focused on changing my way of life. All I’ve known for so long was getting drugs and getting high. So having to completely change your way of life, way of thinking, is not easy, but it’s definitely worth it. I stayed in treatment and did everything they told me to do. I was patient and stayed still even when I wanted to run. Once I received that completion letter and I was ready to leave, I wanted to stay longer – but I knew I was ready to move on with that chapter. Treatment saved my life, it taught me how to deal with my addiction and give me skills to fight the battle that goes on within myself when I get the urge and desire to use drugs.
I never want to go back to the dark places I’ve been, I never want to be dependent on a substance to get by and I know I don’t want to lose my spirit again, because I will die. So I follow the advice of my counselors in treatment, I learned about myself in the groups and from my assignments and I know that I can build a life I’ve always wanted and I never have to pick up a drug again.
by amber nagy